Why Can't We Be Honest?

I feel like I have so many questions and I feel like I'm not a skeptic when it comes to many of them, but I guess it doesn't really matter, does it? Can people truly be honest with themselves or with others? Or do you first have to learn to be true to yourself before you can ever be honest and truthful with anyone else? How do we really know what honesty is? What if I do something which feels wrong, but is something that I'm honestly enjoying? What then becomes the honest part? All questions, no answers. Should I talk or should I wait.
Should I deny it, whatever the IT may be?
Should I laugh it off or embrace it
Should I turn my back and lie to myself?
When does the happiness begin or continue if we all lie to ourselves...
Sometimes I'm too afraid and I know it. Other times I feel as though I just pretend. Pretend for the sake of what though? Why should we pretend if it only hurts us in the end. I guess I can rhyme. Funny. Or sad. I feel like I'm the other, the other side of the skeptic. So is it possible to be a bit of everything? Honestly I don't know. Honestly, I can't say. Honestly, what the hell is honesty?